Shes pretty Cute.

Personalities and Politcs.

For the sake of politics is it still virtuous to swallow otherwise rudely said words? I wonder if that even made sense? When faced with an extremely strong personality that is rude, belligerent, and otherwise incredibly nasty, for the sake of future possible politics are you still a good person if you let it alone?
I have recently encountered such a person. Mind you he is young. But every time I had to interact with him I truly wanted to hurt him. His pride for himself shown through at every encounter. He is so incredibly wrapped up in himself that he can not see the forest through all the trees. There I vented I feel better. But I feel I may have certain encounters where he is involved and everyone else seems to love him which I am not saying he in undeserving of love because he is deserving of love but everyone assumes he is so great and I wonder what has he done. Here a friend and I work our butts off to provide experiences for people he shows up telling us how to do it and I wonder Where is your experience? What have you done to Deserve telling us what to do?
Now I sound prideful. But I believe I have paid my dues to deserve a certain amount of respect. I didn't just go in demanding it. I worked. I cried. I organized.
What would Jesus do? Love one another. Therefor I must love this young individual. He is young and I believe in time will get to be great .
So then what can we do if politically or career wise speaking we have to work with someone that truly rubs us the wrong way? My normal answer is to be incredibly passive aggressive, but that hasn't really worked for me in the past.
I guess I am taking this so hard because there is only a very small list of people I don't get along with its a new thing for me. Pride Pride Pride. Now I'm being proud.
So in my passive aggressive tendencies I write a blog about this anonymous person. Passive aggressive woman strikes again. That would be a really cool super hero. I can see it now, I'll help you out of your terrible situation and if you don't thank me I'll glare and poor water down your pants and pretend nothing happened. ha ha ha ha ha. Then I'll drive your car into a swimming pool and walk away like I did it every day. ha ha ha ha ha.
I'm going to have to think of future adventures for Passive aggressive woman. I think I can have a lot of fun with that.

Finally A New Post

It has been a whole month since I last posted. So much has happened. I have decided to start a new distance studies program being offered by GWC. It will be a group of us getting together once a month for 2 days with a mentor from GWC. I also will have biweekly calls from my mentor and a bi weekly teleconference. It will be intense but it will be a great growing opportunity for me. And hopefully by the end of 6 years because I have to go slow I will have a bachelors degree to show for it. Actually I know I will. I would go full time and get it done is 6 but I have 6 kids and a house and a yard and a dog and now 2 budgies.
We have a court date to adopt the 2 we have been trying to adopt for 2 years. I am very excited about that, and Fred was cast in a TV show. It may be on a lousy Channel but Fred Hillyer is on TV.
My Internet has been acting really weird and I can only get on sporadically and when its windy. At this point Dial up would be better. But they said they would come fix it so hopefully they come soon.

Here something for you old canadians

Is Change REALLY Possible

As I sit amongst my cluttery house in my overweight body I wonder "Can I really change the world?" I consume so much, I take so much and what do I give? I read about wonderful great people like Mohammud Yunnus. Here is a wonderful man doing something to change the world. He is not only helping people but he is giving them dignity. He is giving a hand up not a hand out. That last statement is such a cliche but true none the less. Such a miracle.
Or Aung San Suu Kyi, giving 6 years of her life to house arrest for the people who believed in her. These are the people who are being the change in the world. These are the people to look up to. These are the real heroes.
Tina Turner has a song we don't need another Hero. Is that true? Do we not need another hero? Is another word for hero Statesman, or Stateswoman. Kind of makes you want to go rent Mad Max and find out? Or study more influential people in history.
I digress. Back to my original point. Where does the motivation come from to truly change the world? Or do we need to be like Gandhi? I heard a great story about Gandhi. A mother was really worried about her son he was getting sick because of eating too much sugar. (I may be getting the details wrong but the overall message will come thru). She went to Gandhi and said Gandhi please tell my son to stop eating sugar. He replied to the woman to come back in 30 days. She wondered why 30 days and was a bit upset he would not help sooner. The 30 days past, and this woman brought her son to Gandhi and he turned to the boy and said "Don't eat Sugar" The woman was a bit taken a back and said " you made me wait 30 days to tell my son Don't eat sugar." Gandhi said "yes but you see 30 days ago I ate sugar." (Details of what was eaten are not sure)
So To be the change you wish to see in the world needs to come from within. So I can really always answer my own questions. Its just a matter of where does the motivation come from. Do I worry about the wrong things? I worry about cleaning my house, inspiring my kids to want to learn, clean clothes, clean dishes, why no matter how hard I try I can't type "the" right the first time, I constantly have to delete and fix it. So what do I need to do the moment I leave this room, to make my life and the world a better place? Honestly I need to stop worrying, and read to my kids.
Now for all of you who have been singing we don't need another hero I have something for you to watch. It is nice to see a young Mel Gibson again:

Mommy its ooverrr

Well the Forum was A HUGE success, and I didn't pee my pants when I met Dr. Brooks. Yes I know you are so proud. A couple of my friends were going to bring me a depends but thought it might be inappropriate in front of Dr. B. It was a success and I helped to create an environment where people were inspired and uplifted. It was so good and now I am on to planning next year. Fred thinks I am crazy but I think it was worth it.The talk and laughter afterwards was a good payoff. I also have people asking when is next years. I already have most of the speakers lined up. It seems to be planning itself. I am just the driver in a current I have found. Follow the current don't fight it.
Dr. Brooks talked on Legacy, building our legacy, leaving behind our legacy. One key he brought up was two towers building our two towers. Family is the first tower to build. Focus on family then he said this, The successful families that have good and great children are the families where the mother works at being the mother and the father works at being the father. I thought to myself, have I been working at being a mother?, with all me many trips down to Salt Lake "Bettering myself" have I worked at being a mother? What is a mother? How do you work at being a mother? Now I am absolutely positive that being a mother is much much more than providing clean laundry, and a clean house for our kids to mess up. It has to be otherwise I am in trouble. Have I neglected my First tower? I feel I may have. As I sit here now and write I am begging my kids to leave me alone for 10 minutes to write. Is that neglect? We read together this morning, we coloured, we played. Is asking for 10 minutes to write my thoughts neglect would a "good" mother do that? Or is every waking moment spent playing colouring washing the kids?
I truly have some soul searching to do. I also learned at this forum it is time to focus on your core phase. I will be needed to start my scholar phase very soon but have neglected my core and you can't have a good scholar without a solid core. What an interesting bit of mission to have pushed into my face. In Salt Lake I got you need to get out of your shell and be more public, now I get focus on your core, because Scholar is not far behind. I know most of you are asking where does Love of Learning fit into all this. I don't know at this time. But when I find out I'll let you know. Interesting how only small parts of my mission are being let out a little at a time. Bits and pieces here and there. What is the end result? I don't know but I hope its good and I know my kids will be involved.
People ask why do you do what you do? Meaning host face to faces, plan forums and help with the youth retreats. It dies take me from my family, but I guess its so that when they reach transitional scholar and scholar the things they need will be in place for them. Work out the bugs now so when Megan is there in four years it will be ready for her. I am preparing the way for her. I feel so at peace by what I am doing. It has to be ready for her. I only have 4 years. I also need the parents of her contemporaries to be trained and confident in the phases that it will be ready for their kids as well. That is why I do what I do.
So yes the trips to Salt Lake are worth it, I am bettering myself so I can better those who are going to be around my daughter when she is forming the most important years of her life.
There is a quote "How can I tell what I think till I see what I say" E.M. Forester
I am thankful for this Blog to let my thoughts out and to see what I think. I feel much better. I have been beating myself up for thinking I have been neglecting my first tower when I have only been strengthening its future by building my second tower. That totally makes sense to me if not you.

I need a good book to read

This is me trying to get everyone to sit still for a group picture with my new digital camera. I never got the shot and gave up.