Ancora Imparo

"Still, I am learning"

Michelangelo was credited for saying this at an old age. One search says he scribbled it in one of his note books in old age. Another search says he whispered it to a friend in old age. Either way you search it he was old when he said it. It is a great quote to celebrate lifelong learning. A love of lifelong learning. I shall have to ask my father in law how it is pronounced.
Very inspiring that a genius at 87 can say he is still earning I have a bit if a way to go

Summer is almost over

I must say it has been one of the most stressful summers in quite a while. To much going on and not enough time to do it in and the whole court adoption thing took a lot of steam out of me. I know this may sound whinerish but I felt a depression coming on and thanks to the generous nature of my Mother In Law she gave me a bottle of True Hope and it really has been helping. I feel completely different and actually able to cope. WOW. I am glad it is able to be sold in Canada again.
My kids are growing like weeds. We had a 5 year old birthday party today and invited 5 kids but some siblings had to come along so we ended up with 14 kids. It was pretty hectic but we managed.
I am feeling nostalgic.
I was really dreading teh homeschooling thing but I feel this pull for it and I know for my family it is right. I know some of you disagree but I know for most of my kids it is the right decision for them. But I feel like I can take it on.
I went to a fantastic parent seminar last week. The morning was interesting and I don't feel I got all I could of out of it but my attitude was still not quite in the game. But in the afternoon we did a simulation. 5 pillars to a superb leadership education are Classics, Mentors, Field Experience, Simulations and God. So I was able to take part in this simulation it is called life boat. You pretend you are on a cruise ship that is sinking not enough life boats only 6 people can live and you have to give reasons as to why or why not you want a seat on the boat. I died. First I said no then my mom gave me a seat then the captain took it away because there were to many people. Blah, blah, blah. Anyway it really puts things into perspective for you. When I got home I realized I had made the wrong choice and that I needed to fight for my life instead of giving it up so easily. There was no debrief afterwards due to lack of time but it still would have been nice to have it.
It was good to think again, it was good to be a part of a group with like minded thoughts and beliefs, and it was nice to realize where my priorities should be and now will be. interesting the turns life takes you on to teach you what you need to know. I am working on life as a journey analogies but it is to cheesy to share right now.

To much sadness today

Well I am sad today. The birth father of the girls I am in the process of adopting is contesting the adoption. I mean really he hasn't seen them in over 2 years. He sent money once at the beginning and now he feels the need to be the little bastard he is and contest the adoption. Just because he got my sister pregnant and has run out now he feels the need to hold things up by another month. We have to go to court on Monday as planned but not to finalize things but to hear jerko sperm donors demands. Where does he get off even thinking he is a Dad? Maybe someone should tell him it takes more than $500 every 3 years and more than one Christmas present very second Christmas to be a good dad. Like he should even have grounds to make demands on. I think if you haven't made any attempt in over 2 years to see your kids then perhaps you should lose your right to them. If he wants to be a part of their life then fine be a part of their life but this is freaking ridiculous. And I still have half of my family coming. Like I feel like cleaning and washing sheets for everyone. And to top everything off I was in Cardston yesterday I filled up my Van with gas and went in and my card was declined. It was truly turning into one of hte best days of my life. No credit and stupid asshole birth father decides he should make demands. and hold up the adoption just because he can. Truly at what point does he not have the right to do that. He has made no attempt to see them in over 2 years. The youngest one has no idea who he is.
Here is the truly scary part that rips my heart out. I have absolutely no legal hold on those kids. If he up and decides he wants them back to live with him there is shit all I can do about it. I could lose 2 of my babies on Monday and there is nothing I can do about it.

A little Queen

And yet another great classic from Queen

Under pressure

I feel like this today. I think I will take up jogging.

I Have a Dream

I have always enjoyed this speech. I always cry at the end when he says "Free at last, Free at last, Thank God Almighty I am free at last". I am reading "Think and Grow Rich" by Napolean Hill for the second time it is a good book. I am trying to be more positive and focused in my thoughts. I t can be a very daunting task some days. What does that have to do with Dr. King. Well he is a great example of focused positive thought. Look what he manifested in the world.